Tamiflu here we come...

Stuffy noses, yucky cough, cranky baby, feeding issues, sleeping issues and 1 phone call = possible H1N1 (Swine Flu) infection! Normally I am not the type of mom that freaks out over the small stuff, especially after this last year...cold, strep, ear infections, cough...that = normal around here. But with our lil' P - compromised immune system and ALL is a different story.

the 1 phone call that send me into 'worry - WHAT IF ' mode came yesterday afternoon. A phone call to tell me that Jaden's Primary teacher that he spent 2 hours with on Sunday has now been confirmed to have the H1N1(Swine Flu). That gut wrenching feeling had returned...a feeling I spent 8 months being held captive by. The flu is just the flu, but simple things like ear infections, strep throat and RSV have reeked havoc on my sweet baby girl too many times already. I was not ready for this one.
After hearing Jaden coughing all morning today and for the 3rd day in a row waking up to a very cranky baby, I realized that being optimistic and covering my house in disinfectant and sanitizer might already be in vain. Ironically enough, Preslie had her 9 month check-up and Kyler had his 7 year check-up at two today...by 8:30 I had also schedule Jaden in at the same time.

That look in Preslie's eyes today reminded me of this winter we were grateful to survive. The purple circles underlying those eyes that speak misery and discomfort, and the fight just to get her to eat or give into the desperate need to sleep has got me tied in knots. You think warmer weather means no more illnesses...we'll be infection/disease free for at least another 3 months...right?? WRONG.

So after a couple hours at the doc checking all 3 kids from head to toe, we are sent home with a mountain of prescriptions and precautions. Both 'P' and Jay are on Tamiflu to get a head start on the already mounting and miserable symptoms as well as a few others that I am not even sure what they do. Preslie's throat is all red which explains the misery at meal and bed time and with our little 'fever-less' P its hard to tell what else might be causing the discomfort. Jaden's cough progressively got worse and a fever began early Friday evening. By night fall I had changed my clothes 3 times as I wore pretty much everything I attempted to give Preslie. It's almost midnight...'P' is asleep, mom took Jaden to help out and I wonder how this next battle will turn out. I am exhausted by the 'what-if's and the fear running through my mind. Truth is, no matter how you try to talk yourself out of walking that path of fear, if you stop long enough to think, you realize you are smack dab in the middle of it. Which explains my snapping, bad mood, miserable mom day. Trying to swim the surface...keep my head above water, treading as fast as I can, trying to stay strong; when underneath it all, I am a big mess. It's just the Flu...right? It's just the flu...We shall see what tomorrow brings. Please remember my kiddos in your prayers...pray that's all it will amount too...just the Flu!